Sarah's space

Hey guys i have moved to a new blog page its

 

 

thanks

 

love u all xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

I want to say sorry to everyone who has been effected by this blog thing...

 

I hope everyone who reads this knows that if i have hurt u in something i have said that i have just been so hurt by the decision. and what has been on my shoulders i have put on others as well eg Sam, nick, mum, james family, youth group kids, uni and most of all James.

 

Im sorry that this has had to happen in this way and if i could i would take everything back.

 

I wanna thank u for being there for me but also to say alot of people think i just tag along james and i dont. Like in alot of blogs i am reading that people say if james goes sarah will as well, and im not just taging along. I love james and wanna be with him im not just going cos of him also there is alot of things i do that i feel God wants me to be somewhere so i can help poeple grow and so i can grow.

 

So please dont say things like im just taging cos im not...

I know that most of you are aware that james has been told that he cant be apart of the leadership team...

 

this blog was ment to be something where i tell the world how angry and upset etc bout this i am but God keeps telling me that if Jesus was on the earth in walking what would he do?

 

But i do want all of you (Youth) that i love you so much and james feels the same way. I will never leave any of you and i will still be there for all of you no matter what. i will drive to the ends of the earth if i knew you were i need. just dont forget us and what we have done for you and we will never stop doing for u. i love u all so so very much. im finding this really hard to type cos my eyes are filled with tears so i cant see much at all. But to all of u, keep ur faith with God there is going to be something great to happen in ur life and i know that he will never leave u. Just remember to keep with him and follow him and so many things are going to happen for you.

 

Dont think we are leaving or anything but i just wanted you to know that we are still here for you. xoxoxox

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

i went to planetshackers church tonight and it was a blast. but the one the that hit me was "stop running and go home" and i was thinking no way am i running anywhere but i realised that i am without knowing it

 

most of us live a life where we have a home, family etc but when things get down we just wanna leave and if ur not agreeing with me then i must be alone. ill admit something...there was a time when everytime i felt crap and depressed i would dream of walking onto a road in front of a truck or other ways to give up. i would write my last letters but then something would always stop me from doing it.

 

i know that because of my leadership roll at church i shouldnt be saying this but in the last month i have learnt that these youth group kids i never felt as though i could tell them anything bout my past...but as one person was drifting away god told me to tell this person that what was happening i went through the same thing. and even though there was a part of me trying to shut me up i didnt.... but i have noticed that the more i open up to these kids and tell them that they werent alone cos i was there they have started to open up to me way more and its gr8

 

but anyway today at church i got the reminder that god was there with me the whole way even though i wasnt there for him. but there are so many days i cant stop thinking that if god wasnt that one thing stopping me then i wouldnt have meet these wonderful people i have meet. and most of all i wouldnt have James and he means the world to me. i thank god nearly everyday of sending me to greensy cos i have none stop felt like i am actually doing something there. Thanks god heaps love u more each day.....